ok so janina has a friend over so now i’m really alone
side note… why is all hentai so fucking gross?? 99% of the time the private parts don’t look right, the women look like they are in pain or are children and they are a million pictures of women getting gang banged!?!?! i really don’t think japanese men have ever had sex or even seen a vagina. they have no idea what sex is about. they just like that ridiculously large boobs and dicks with cum everywhere is sexy… I really don’t get it
days like today i miss that giant bottle of vodka i used to have. I could quietly get drug by myself and the feeling that I was alone was less obvious :(
kelly is offically gone… i think
the house is empty and i don’t know who if anyone is coming back….. well i guess this means i’m going to get lots of work done tonight which i guess is a good thing….
everybody else is graduating and i feel like i’m going to be at this fucking school for the rest of my life……
I will not be sad when kelly moves out on saturday.
living with her has really shown me how much of a bitch she is and the fact that she is moving out 3 months early kinda proves that we will no longer be friends
I don’t know if she thinks i betrayed her by staying friends with kim, but it has been over a week since she has said more than two words to me. Janinna is has been nicer to me than she has.
and you know what the best part will be when she is gone? I won’t have to look at her fucking mess anymore or be constantly be worried that she is talking shit about me.
Often the only reason I sit down stairs with other people is so she can see my face because lord knows that if you don’t talk to her every two seconds she is going to find something about you that she doesn’t like.
I really do think the house will be a more positive place after she leaves
watch maybe me and janinna will start talking again…
You what I need?
A big ole handle of vodka which I can have all the myself so I can quietly enjoy developing an alcohol problem
all the motivation is gone….. I’ve never not wanted to work this much before… am I sick or something?? I really have stopped giving any shits about my school work
I don’t know if it is just because i am not scared of these classes or it is because i’m bored of the work but I really couldn’t give two fucks about any of this work
why do i feel so alone lately :( i have the incredibly sad feeling in my chest and i just want to be home
i regret going to this school and i regret having spent so much money and i regret ever agreeing to be with the bitchy people away from the rest of the world
right now i regret every decision i have made in the past 2 years and but i don’t know what i would have done differently
applied to more schools
screamed at people when they started to be mean to kim
not agreed to pay $700 a month to live in a shitty appartment which may not even be near where i get a co-op
fuck me and my lack of ability to every be happy with what i have
i just can’t give myself time to think which is all i have :(
